Story Behind The Song

"This song was written with 3 perspectives in mind; that of a soldier at war, that of a soldier in the streets & that of a soldier on the road trying accomplish his dreams. I tried to write it in a way that showed the similarity of these three polarizing lifestyles."

Lyrics

[Hook: Anna]
When you come home, I'll stop this
When you come home, I'll hide it good
I'll never cry again
When you come home to me

[Verse 1: Tuan X]
Baby girl, I'm a solder. A "war machine."
Made for this battlefield, my own regime
"One man army," my own Marine
- my own fatigues. All pressed out
Dressed out, no broken seams
Might got a couple broken dreams
But that don't phase me. I'm fugacious
Bred for this shit, baby, I embrace this
They gon' blame me if I'm abrasive
"There's rules to this shit," but I lost the manual
Blame Emmanuel, but that's off topic
I'm stackin' cake in hopes that we'll top it
One day. You get me?
You shaved your head, girl, you Britney?
Heard you lost weight, you Whitney?
Oh, too soon? Pardon me
Blame this life for why I hardly see you
Hardly breathe you. Remember when I
Used to harp & tease you? Heard you graduatin'
I'm proud of you. I smile for you
Though I usually don't. Hold back tears
Yea, I usually front. Stuff all my feelings
In this broke down suitcase, threw it in a trunk
Drove it off a cliff & I called it "love."
But it ain't though & I get this
Yea, I might'a had a couple mistresses
But I won't tell, if you don't tell
If we don't tell, then it's oh well
We gon' build this castle
Back up to the point where it used to be
See the truth in me? Cuz' I got a room for two
I'll be home soon, gotta grind for you

[Verse 2: Tuan X]
Lost a couple brothers in this war of mine - war of mind
War ain't kind on this battlefield
Blood, it pour like water do, glad it ain't mine
But I feel jinxed every time I think on it
But we feel ease every time we speak on it
Don't we? I live for the talks
Holdin' hands, I miss all the walks
Holdin' grands don't fill all the wants
Loose ones don't fill all the needs
I wanna lay root, wanna plant a seed
I wanna bear fruit, wanna be a tree
Build a legacy, breed a dynasty
Make my Mama proud, make her "Granny T." Ha!
Raise a family (Raise a family?)
Yea, ask me that like two years ago;
I probably woulda told you, "you lost your marbles
... Toodles!"
But this the path that I choose to walk on
& you the spot that I choose to park on
This the life that I chose to lead
& this the army I chose to fight for
This the cause that I chose to die for!
But I pray I never have to though
All I ask for if your commitment
No resistance, hold the scrutiny
Shed the tears, I shed them too
Keep them fears, I got them too
A few more years and I'm out this game
& I never wanna ever see its face again!
Just promise me you'll wait for me
Patiently.. Patiently..
Ugh..

[Bridge: Anna]
I saw you again, I knew just where'd you be
I'll stop this real soon when you're back safe with me