Story Behind The Song

I had a rough three months of self-assessment and transformation before I went into the studio to work on my second album. I wasn't going to record this song, because I couldn't sing it without crying and it was so personal, but I did due to popular dema

Song Description

A song about picking yourself back up again and moving forward after a hard time.

Lyrics

I don't want to leave my bed today
don't want to wake up and have to face the day
I've got the weight of the world on my shoulders
Besides- I know it's gonne rain all way
I probably won't even see the sun anyway
and the air is gonna feel just a little bit colder.
Now my body's full of aches and pains
I've got this whole in my heart that I just can't explain
and I think I might be getting sick.
Well maybe I'm just sick of this, I'm just tired of the skin that I'm living in
'Cause I run, and I run, and I run,
and I can't seem to get away from it.

Are you out there?
Are you listening?
'Cause I am down on my knees
and I'm begging you to shine
Shine on me.

I spent the past three years of my life
trying to hide from the person that I was inside
I was just lying to myself- it was so phony, so fake
and the past six months trying to figure out why
it finally took three thousand miles
and three months all by myself to realize
my mistake.
Now I'm just sitting here, and I'm just wondering why
I could let so much time slip by
and still I'm right back
to where I started.
And not a night goes by when I don't cry myself to sleep,
thinking 'bout all the things I wished that I could be
I feel so stupid, but mostly, broken-hearted.

Well are you out there?
God are you listening?
'Cause I'm down on my knees
and I am begging you to shine,
shine on me.
I'm begging you to shine,
'cmon shine
on me.

Well it's time to go, it's time to show
It's time to pick up the microphone
This is the only thing that can save my soul
So red light, yellow light, ready set glow.
I'll transcend these emotions that make me wanna cry,
transcend all the moments when I feel like I could die,
transform them into words, if you might recognize,
GOD I am begging you to give me just a little more light!
I am begging you to give me just a little more light.

Are you out there?
Are you listening?
'Cause I am down on my knees
and I am begging you to shine
Shine on me
Yes I am begging you to shine
Shine on me.
I am begging you to shine
Shine on me.