Story Behind The Song

My dad came out in 2010, he left my mum and began to dress like a woman. This didn't bother me, it was the fact he seemed so determined to distance himself from mine and my siblings lives. I rarely saw him when I was young because he worked so much. It felt that me being as accepting as I am and him now having all the time in the world he may want to spend some time with me... this has not been the case and he has just had surgery to look more like a woman.

Song Description

A song about the growing distance between me and my Dad.

Lyrics

I used to lie awake, to watch my father's shape go by the gap to the hallway light

and I would hear him sing, he'd soothe Sam's whimpering, I'd lie and I'd pretend to cry

And I wondered what made him stay away, always gone before I'd wake, back late

So how'd you feel a hole in your heart?, do you travel from Venus to Mars? and run from your life?
Was every moment so bad? does every memory make you sad? when you were my dad!
from my life you fade and change into a stranger

I'd watch him fall asleep, sat in the drivers seat, so scared of the weight that his shoulders beared

Though he'd still laugh sometimes, even through his weary eyes, he'd smile and every Saturday we'd play for a while

and don't you see the look on my face, the one I wore everyday, so please stay

So how'd you feel a hole in your heart?, do you travel from Venus to Mars? and run from your life?
Was every moment so bad? does every memory make you sad? when you were my dad!
from my life you fade and change into a stranger